I'm deleting my DeviantArt account, I've already deleted my Twitter, and I'm going to stop being Lewanut for the rest of my life.
There was no real “easy” way to say this, but I had to break it somehow. The first of the next month seemed like a good arbitrary date for the actual deletion, so I picked that. I wanted to give you guys the chance to see this message first, so there'd be at least some closure; I know how it is when someone disappears with no reason given. Anyway, the first of next month is also April Fool's Day, but I'm not joking, I really will delete this account. On Monday, 3/16, I'll start the gradual process of deleting content that I've posted here, meaning journals and deviations; this will be a sign to convince you I really am leaving. Unfortunately, as a side effect of this deletion all my works-in-progress will go unfinished, including the collaborations. For the WltHO strips, the artists have my permission to repost them (or post them for the first time, as the case may be), and if any of them want to contact other artists about rehosting shared strips my Lewanut email address will remain open until June.
It's not really fair to just say “I'm leaving” without giving the reason, so here it is: pride versus humility. I'm scaling back on internet stuff in general, but wanted to keep Lewanut because I get to talk to most of you awesome people. But Lewanut, my primary online social identity for thirteen years and currently my only online identity, has for thirteen years has had a egotism problem. Being me, of course, I find my thoughts valuable, in both the forms of creative work and opinion pieces. And online, I have the ability to be somewhat charismatic. Unfortunately, a lot of the damage in the world is created by charismatic. people, whether politicians, cult leaders, or celebrities. I'm convicted that you'll all be better served by not having Lewanut around, and the man behind the curtain must move on. I'm not planning on having much of an online presence at all from now on, limiting myself to informational searches – stuff to help move forward in the real world.
The hardest part for me will be leaving you guys – I hope you'll do well, and I regret I won't be there to see it. Rahiden, DreadHaven, the-Rose-of-Blue, and FritzyBeat have provided especially valuable for chatroom ponderings, support, and sometimes pointing out when I'm full of air. I'm sorry to leave Aphelps, who's still figuring out some life stuff, and Ziggyfin, who's emerged from the chrysalis a full-fledged Idealist and is moving towards achieving his amazing potential. I also regret that to keep this journal readable, it must be short and not full of jumbled names, but of course I'll also miss almost all of the rest of you guys, especially LudicrousDemon and MegaHayzer. And the people who have already moved on from dA, although they're already gone and won't read this.
I haven't really addressed yet that April 1 is a really weird date to pick if I want people to believe me, but the same Spirit that convicted me to leave has explained why that must be the day. It's because although you've been told that it's coming, the details seem unbelievable, and so you discount it out of hand. There will be signs beforehand, of course, which is why I'll start deleting content on Monday; perhaps breaking the metaphor, I'll reply to comments through the end of March. Definitely breaking the metaphor, once Lewanut is gone, I'll be gone; no talking through other forms. Don't worry, I'll be fine, until something unexpected comes up. So, about three minutes. (That's real life for you, or at least for me.)